Heave Ho it's Mir here!😜
Okay, I guess it's been a while since I did not active in blogging for abt almost two months, aite? In these 2 months, many had happened - sad stories, scary and terrifying stories, happy stories and even romantic stories awhhh 💕 But alas! I would not tell anything neither my sad nor romantic stories and I cant wait to jot it here ommmoooo i'm excited okay let's get started!!
The latest thing which happened to me was quite something scary and terrifying. Nothing related to spiritual or ghostly things, but actually was more to a pervert guy? Okay sumpah scary cuak semua ada 😂 I am quite afraid to share this here in case if he managed to found me here but I wanted to share this here. Who knows I might read this later and laughed at my own silly mistakes?
First thing first, I need to mention here due to this case, I had became a paranoid Mir 😂 who is afraid to accept any strangers friend request at any socmeds account. I'm also had developed trust issues towards anyone I knew. So ladies and gentlemen, please be informed that I would not trust any of your single words as simple as that. I might look like a woman who accepts everything, but deep inside I had trust issues. My smile and my silence are not a warm thing right now, yah.
Okay, so the story started around two weeks ago, where i did receive a direct message (dm) from a guy. I addressed him as WATERMELON in here, bcs i am craving for watermelon right now 😜 This guy WATERMELON had dm-ed me for almost two weeks like that, but i actually ignored the dm. Until one day, I wanted to clear all the dms and out of sudden my phone was lag for a moment. I tried to push a few buttons to ensure it was working fine, including ACCEPTING HIS MESSAGE. Teeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttttttttttttt the end.
Then we exchanged some few basic informations (oh no i wouldnt tell ya what information we did exchange) and the next morning he video called me. I was in the middle of wearing makeups so ofcourse i had to put my towel on me to cover up my head. Okay here was my wrong move. I PICKED IT UP but we did not say any words. And yes, he was making faces which I didnt understand at all. Then he engaged the call. He dm-ed me, to take off the towel and any other things he told me to do so and i dont want to tell what was it. He video called me once again and once again he's been making that same faces. Urghhhh I didnt even understand why with his face? Then he engaged the call and dm-ed me again, told me the same thing.
I scold him, and yet i thought he found it funny and laughed at me. He even confessed something (and still i dont want to tell you) but what makes me getting mad was bcs of his words. On that time, I was already on the nerve wreck but still act cool infront of my mum 😂 oh ya btw i already ignored him, and yesssss he did video called me many times to persuade me. He created dramas duhhhhh 😒
To be frank, Mir is a person who could not get mad for a long time. One day is already more that enough to cool down this fire burning 🔥 others is just to feed her ego 😙 so i was actually trying to forgive him, and would like to have a conversation with WATERMELON during night. But since he kept making dramas, I couldnt settle down with ease 😡 so I kept ignoring him until that night i replied to him. just few and simple things. This WATERMELON guy had not learn his lesson. He asked for video call and ohh godddd i was already getting bored with this guy so bye bye, i blocked you for real.
The same night, I received friend requests and dms from fake accounts. Like seriously??? I didnt know if it was from the same person or another person is trying to stalked me, or whatever but hm, i've became a paranoid since that night. It was a scary day for me, and i am quite afraid since he knew my workplace. We're quite far around 30mins our distance, but if there's a will, there's a way right? I am becoming a Mir who is extra careful with her surroundings. Especially my own safety. This incident had really taught me FOR NOT BELIEVING ANY STRANGERS YOU MET, ESPECIALLY ONLINE. People with bad intentions are everywhere. Ofcourse, i cannot simply make judgement or punish others bcs of WATERMELON, but atleast i'm trying to protect myself before anything happens.
I am my family's backbone, ofcourse i need to take care of my family's safety. Mir's silliness had brought her to experience a terrifying situation 😂 Maybe i should not be too friendly with others. Lesson learnt 🙌
If you're intended to leave any comments, please dont ever hesitate to do so. I'll read it gladly :) Gtg for now. Chiaoww!
Mir. 🎈
Wednesday, October 30, 2019
Sunday, August 4, 2019
Humans Will Always Be Humans
Heave Ho it's Mir here!
I've re-activated all my social medias after 4 to 5 days deactivated them. I felt peace on those past few days. Social medias indeed make us addicted-like-hella-weed towards them. And now after 24 hours of reactivating them, I've already becoming addicted. AGAIN. Maigod. It stressed me out. Not because of the addiction, but bcs of overly-thinking towards other issue. An issue which I should have not worry/think abt it at all. But nahh, bukan Mir lah kalau tak over thinking 😑
This evening, I'd been over thinking with all "WHAT IF" situations and scenarios. Sigh. And it affected my mood the whole evening, until now. But right now I've already calmed a little bit, which is why I can sit quietly and express everything here. Thank Godness.
I hate this feeling. This kind of unsure, what if, questioning myself situations. I hate it. It's bcs I didnt seem to find the answers to all those questions and uncertainties. It's not that I'm being insecure, BIG NOOO. It's just that a feeling which I knew I would never get answers from certain people even if I'd go and ask them to get the real answers, I would still not be getting the answers. Oh yessss I do really hate that.
Frankly speaking, I am tired. Already tired with all this things. But I couldnt seem to find the solution/way/whatever you called them in order to stop all these. Sometimes I did wander and ponder,is it related to the dream actually? What it has to do with all my dreams? My intuitions? My guts? Who am I dealing with actually? What did it has to do with my life?
Whatever it is, I never stop praying. For the answers, for that one particular person to be granted with happiness and success. And many more. Never been tired. Not bcs of the feelings. No. But bcs of sincerity. I do really want that person to succeed in life. Even if I would already being expelled by that person in the future 😅
No worries, Mir is fine. Mir just need positive vibes, and she'll get back on her current track. Just wish Mir some luck, and some strength. I'll appreciate them. Really really do appreciate them :)
As usual, nobody would read this but if you're intended to leave any comments, please dont ever hesitate to do so. I'll read it gladly :) Gtg for now. Chiaoww!
Mir. 🎈
I've re-activated all my social medias after 4 to 5 days deactivated them. I felt peace on those past few days. Social medias indeed make us addicted-like-hella-weed towards them. And now after 24 hours of reactivating them, I've already becoming addicted. AGAIN. Maigod. It stressed me out. Not because of the addiction, but bcs of overly-thinking towards other issue. An issue which I should have not worry/think abt it at all. But nahh, bukan Mir lah kalau tak over thinking 😑
This evening, I'd been over thinking with all "WHAT IF" situations and scenarios. Sigh. And it affected my mood the whole evening, until now. But right now I've already calmed a little bit, which is why I can sit quietly and express everything here. Thank Godness.
I hate this feeling. This kind of unsure, what if, questioning myself situations. I hate it. It's bcs I didnt seem to find the answers to all those questions and uncertainties. It's not that I'm being insecure, BIG NOOO. It's just that a feeling which I knew I would never get answers from certain people even if I'd go and ask them to get the real answers, I would still not be getting the answers. Oh yessss I do really hate that.
Frankly speaking, I am tired. Already tired with all this things. But I couldnt seem to find the solution/way/whatever you called them in order to stop all these. Sometimes I did wander and ponder,
Whatever it is, I never stop praying. For the answers, for that one particular person to be granted with happiness and success. And many more. Never been tired. Not bcs of the feelings. No. But bcs of sincerity. I do really want that person to succeed in life. Even if I would already being expelled by that person in the future 😅
No worries, Mir is fine. Mir just need positive vibes, and she'll get back on her current track. Just wish Mir some luck, and some strength. I'll appreciate them. Really really do appreciate them :)
As usual, nobody would read this but if you're intended to leave any comments, please dont ever hesitate to do so. I'll read it gladly :) Gtg for now. Chiaoww!
Mir. 🎈
Friday, August 2, 2019
Bleh-bleh-bleh
Heave Ho it's Mir here!
You see, we tend to become emotional, especially when it related with our feelings. Whatever we bottled up, alone, we tend to feel hurted inside. Like nobody cares abt us. This is why, ME-TIME is very important.
I would say, me-time really helped me in calming myself down. It helps me to re-think whatever I'd done throughout the day. Or few days aback. Kita boleh duduk bertenang, fikir sejenak, apa yg dah pun kita buat, apa yg buat kita jadi murung and isolated ourselves from the world for a while. We could see all that whenever we reached peace.
I've mentioned in the previous post "jot down everything, and whenever you're ready, re-read all the jots". Indeed. Kita akan lebih nampak, lebih tahu macam mana emosi kita masa tu. Macam mana kita handle emosi kita PADA MASA ITU. Daripada situ, kita tahu macam mana our anger management. It really works on me. Bcs at the end of the day, I knew which part i"ve one wrong. And I knew which part I should alter/change/makeover whatever it is called. Tapiiii yes memang penat nak tulis semua. Nak taip dekat socmeds pulak, people are watching us. So it's a BIG NOOO! Jangan sesekali gunakan social media as a medium or platform to express our anger. It's very dangerous. Sesekali is okay, but please still kekalkan etique and adab while you're on the socmed okay! Behave ya!
Later than, I am sooo malas nak tulis apa semua, apatah lagi nak taip anything. I'd prefer for not to involve myself with socmeds whenever I was not in good mood. Kalau tak tahan sangat, okaylah I'll tweet something, but not being too precise with the words. Let other make their own assumptions. Which is why, one of the reason why I am deactivating my social media accounts for now.
Okay, back to our business. Disebabkan Mir sangat malas dah nak menulis, therefore I tend to lie down/duduk sendirian sekejap dalam bilik. Tengok siling, tengok kipas. Tengok surrounding. Tak dalam bilik pun takpe, as long as you can detach yourself from others for a while. Jangan fokus dekat orang lain, sekejap. Fokus dekat diri sendiri dulu. Like Mir, I will look at the ceiling, termenung sendirian kejap. Tenangkan hati, tenangkan fikiran. Tenangkan gelora gelodak jiwa yg tengah membara. Yg peling penting, MULUT KENA DIAM. JANGAN BUNYI/MEMBEBEL/BISING/MENGUNGKIT whatever you called them. JANGAN. Semua yg Mir mention ni would make thing worse. And definitely we dont want that to happen.
Pandang ceiling diam diam. Well, IT IS FACT that we will put the blame on others in order to calm ourselves down. Okay, buatlah dulu kalau itu yg boleh tenangkan hati. Lepastu, slowly try tanya diri sendiri "BETUL KE ITU SALAH DIA? HOW ABT IF THAT WAS MY FAULT TOO? WHAT IF IT IS MY FAULT FROM THE BEGINNING? I DID WRONG TOO" Yes guys we should do this. Sebab everything happen bukan salah org lain jugak. Sometimes it is bcs of ourselves. Tapi sebab orang lain nak jaga hati, jaga perasaan kita, then they tend to cheat. They have their own reasons for why they were doing that to us.
Like my case, maybe Mir the one who did put too much hope. Maybe I'm the one who's being too afraid to let go of anything. Maybe I'm the one who's being too attached. Maybe it's my fault from the beginning. Finally, I got my answers. Yes, it was me. I was the one who should be put on blame. Not anyone else. Me. It is me. So now, I am in the middle of process to let go of everything, if that is the best for both sake. It is not easy weasy peasy, but still I need to learn to let go, aite? Got long journey to go, fellas 😊
Dalam hidup ni, kita tak selalu betul. Kalau ada orang yg boleh tegur kita, then you guys should be grateful. You guys got someone who did really love you. Kalau takde, that is why kita kena belajar to always put the blame on us. So that we wont over exceed the limit. Tapi janganlah sentiasa salahkan diri sendiri, nanti orang menyampah. So, berpada okay. It's just a guidance for us for not being too excited in putting the blame on others. Orang pun ada hati, ada perasaan. It's a balance between reality, and empathy. Okay?
"Good heart would lead to good result". Dengki dengki nak pergi mana? Pathetic loser.
I know nobody would read this HAHAHAHAHA but if you're reading this, and intended to leave any comments, please dont ever hesitate to do so. I'll read it gladly :) Gtg for now. Chiaoww!
You see, we tend to become emotional, especially when it related with our feelings. Whatever we bottled up, alone, we tend to feel hurted inside. Like nobody cares abt us. This is why, ME-TIME is very important.
I would say, me-time really helped me in calming myself down. It helps me to re-think whatever I'd done throughout the day. Or few days aback. Kita boleh duduk bertenang, fikir sejenak, apa yg dah pun kita buat, apa yg buat kita jadi murung and isolated ourselves from the world for a while. We could see all that whenever we reached peace.
I've mentioned in the previous post "jot down everything, and whenever you're ready, re-read all the jots". Indeed. Kita akan lebih nampak, lebih tahu macam mana emosi kita masa tu. Macam mana kita handle emosi kita PADA MASA ITU. Daripada situ, kita tahu macam mana our anger management. It really works on me. Bcs at the end of the day, I knew which part i"ve one wrong. And I knew which part I should alter/change/makeover whatever it is called. Tapiiii yes memang penat nak tulis semua. Nak taip dekat socmeds pulak, people are watching us. So it's a BIG NOOO! Jangan sesekali gunakan social media as a medium or platform to express our anger. It's very dangerous. Sesekali is okay, but please still kekalkan etique and adab while you're on the socmed okay! Behave ya!
Later than, I am sooo malas nak tulis apa semua, apatah lagi nak taip anything. I'd prefer for not to involve myself with socmeds whenever I was not in good mood. Kalau tak tahan sangat, okaylah I'll tweet something, but not being too precise with the words. Let other make their own assumptions. Which is why, one of the reason why I am deactivating my social media accounts for now.
Okay, back to our business. Disebabkan Mir sangat malas dah nak menulis, therefore I tend to lie down/duduk sendirian sekejap dalam bilik. Tengok siling, tengok kipas. Tengok surrounding. Tak dalam bilik pun takpe, as long as you can detach yourself from others for a while. Jangan fokus dekat orang lain, sekejap. Fokus dekat diri sendiri dulu. Like Mir, I will look at the ceiling, termenung sendirian kejap. Tenangkan hati, tenangkan fikiran. Tenangkan gelora gelodak jiwa yg tengah membara. Yg peling penting, MULUT KENA DIAM. JANGAN BUNYI/MEMBEBEL/BISING/MENGUNGKIT whatever you called them. JANGAN. Semua yg Mir mention ni would make thing worse. And definitely we dont want that to happen.
Pandang ceiling diam diam. Well, IT IS FACT that we will put the blame on others in order to calm ourselves down. Okay, buatlah dulu kalau itu yg boleh tenangkan hati. Lepastu, slowly try tanya diri sendiri "BETUL KE ITU SALAH DIA? HOW ABT IF THAT WAS MY FAULT TOO? WHAT IF IT IS MY FAULT FROM THE BEGINNING? I DID WRONG TOO" Yes guys we should do this. Sebab everything happen bukan salah org lain jugak. Sometimes it is bcs of ourselves. Tapi sebab orang lain nak jaga hati, jaga perasaan kita, then they tend to cheat. They have their own reasons for why they were doing that to us.
Like my case, maybe Mir the one who did put too much hope. Maybe I'm the one who's being too afraid to let go of anything. Maybe I'm the one who's being too attached. Maybe it's my fault from the beginning. Finally, I got my answers. Yes, it was me. I was the one who should be put on blame. Not anyone else. Me. It is me. So now, I am in the middle of process to let go of everything, if that is the best for both sake. It is not easy weasy peasy, but still I need to learn to let go, aite? Got long journey to go, fellas 😊
Dalam hidup ni, kita tak selalu betul. Kalau ada orang yg boleh tegur kita, then you guys should be grateful. You guys got someone who did really love you. Kalau takde, that is why kita kena belajar to always put the blame on us. So that we wont over exceed the limit. Tapi janganlah sentiasa salahkan diri sendiri, nanti orang menyampah. So, berpada okay. It's just a guidance for us for not being too excited in putting the blame on others. Orang pun ada hati, ada perasaan. It's a balance between reality, and empathy. Okay?
"Good heart would lead to good result". Dengki dengki nak pergi mana? Pathetic loser.
I know nobody would read this HAHAHAHAHA but if you're reading this, and intended to leave any comments, please dont ever hesitate to do so. I'll read it gladly :) Gtg for now. Chiaoww!
Tuesday, July 30, 2019
My _th Job Interview
Heave Ho it's Mir here!
Well, job hunting had never been easy. You applied them, but then when you're invited to attend an interview, there must be reasons for why you had to decline the iv. Or you're even attended the interviews, but somehow due to some reasons you had to let go the position. Worse, not even accepted to be interviewed by the panels. Hm so sad.
For my case, I experienced all of them. I once attended 2 interviews on the same day, and was accepted to the next level. I was even being accepted to work on their company. I just need to come to the office on that particular morning, and report duty myself as a permanent staff. But yahhh, got no luck, no rizq. I had to let go both of the positions offered. I repeat. BOTH. Why? I wont tell the reasons. Let it just be a history.
So, today, I've attended another job interview. Without any related work experience, I applied for the position and luckily that evening I did received an email reply, congratulating me for being accepted to attend an interview at the company. YASS!!!!
Today is the day. 10am. I was scared to death for God sake!!! But alhamdulillah better than previous ivs which I've attended. 😂
The moment I arrived, there's already a few other candidates were waiting for their turn. Filled in a form, then waited patiently for the name to be called by the HR. I did expect the iv would end up in Zohor, I guess? Because the last time I attended an iv also at 10am, my turn did come at 12.30 noon. Phewwww.
Nothing happened, I just getting sleepy bcs the waiting room was sooo freaking cold!! I couldnt afford the coldness, and my hands were getting numb. Luckily, around 11.30, my name was announced by the HR. Urghhhh finally after 1 hour of waiting in that cold room.
The interviewer was a Dr. Dr Rais. He's the owner of that therapy centre. At first I thought he was an Indian. Hahahaha. But hey, he was a really nice guy. And strict. Yes he was. I could hear the firmness in his speech while interviewing me. But I like it.
15 mins later, mine was done. Dr Rais said I would get the result BY TODAY! 😱 Whoaaaa you got to be kidding me. They worked fast! And now I'm waiting for the call. If there's any call from them, then I was accepted. If there's none, then there's no luck.
Now is 1.51PM, I'm freaking scared to know the result. What if, I was not accepted? 😩😩😩
Okay. Positive vibes come hereeeeee. Dont want any negative vibes shooohh shhooohhhhh. Go go. Let's wait for the result, PATIENTLY. Okenggg peeps??
Hiyarghhhh! If you're reading this, and intended to leave any comments, please dont ever hesitate to do so. I'll read it gladly :) Gtg for now. Chiaoww!
Mir.
Monday, July 29, 2019
Brand New Fresh Start :)
Heave Ho it's Mir here!
After quite some time, finally I've decided to come back and do blog. I've restarted a new one before, few months aback, but somehow something happened and I had to shut the blog down. My first old blog? Nahhh I've already forgot the link and password. Last time I did blog was in 2009? 2010? Blerghhh 9 to 10 years had past.
Too much untold stories, I kept all by myself. Some were shared with my friends, some were kept hidden. I only shared what I wanted others to know. Hell nah I shared the stories in details. Never ever. People should had not know the full stories. Let them think. Let them made their own conclusions. We only have to show the results.
Okay! So new fresh start ha. For sure I do need someone to talk. But apparently I didnt seem to find a good listener of mine yet, sooo yah blogging is the best way. HO HO HO I wouldnt share everything here, but at least I can express whatever I want. Here's my rule :
After quite some time, finally I've decided to come back and do blog. I've restarted a new one before, few months aback, but somehow something happened and I had to shut the blog down. My first old blog? Nahhh I've already forgot the link and password. Last time I did blog was in 2009? 2010? Blerghhh 9 to 10 years had past.
Too much untold stories, I kept all by myself. Some were shared with my friends, some were kept hidden. I only shared what I wanted others to know. Hell nah I shared the stories in details. Never ever. People should had not know the full stories. Let them think. Let them made their own conclusions. We only have to show the results.
Okay! So new fresh start ha. For sure I do need someone to talk. But apparently I didnt seem to find a good listener of mine yet, sooo yah blogging is the best way. HO HO HO I wouldnt share everything here, but at least I can express whatever I want. Here's my rule :
Jot everything down. Whenever you're ready, re-read all your jots. From the writings, you'll know where you did wrong. You'll learn a new lesson, and you'll discover the solutions.
I've done before in manual way; I wrote my own diary in a book. But heyyyyy I was really insecure with it. I have to keep it at the most safest and hardest place to be found by my family members. Sometimes me myself even forgot where did I put the book. They loved to read my diaries and I didnt even know what were the charming attraction did it has until they read the book of mine. Sigh.
I guess, for now this blog will be my new best friend. If you're reading this, and intended to leave any comments, please dont ever hesitate to do so. I'll read it gladly :) Gtg for now. Chiaoww!
Mir.
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